so today (or yesterday i can’t really remember) a friend i worked with asked me if everything was ok. he said i seemed “po’ed” this week. i shrugged it off, saying, “oh really?! no i’m fine…”
seriously i thought i was. monday was kind of rough and there were some tough spots yesterday, but no more than usual.
but then i was watching my story from today, and i do look kinda po’ed! it’s true! this has happened to me before. without realizing it, i look like i’m glaring at the camera. no one wants to watch a glarer!
so it makes me wonder. what am i upset about? my heart has indeed felt heavy the past few days.
we worked a terrible fatal accident on monday. a local elementary school principal was killed in the wreck, her 7-yr-old grandson injured and in the hospital. he’s stable now, but still. then an acquaintance of mine (g-he was at the st. patty’s day parade, the guy who was talking to us for a long time in the back of the crowd) was in a bad accident last weekend and is in icu with potential brain damage.
stuff like that. these things usually don’t bother me too much, but for some reason it’s taken a bit of a toll. i’ve even been running a lot this week which usually helps, but i guess these things are weighing on me.
there’s a friend who lives far away i’ve been trying to see too and it’s been tough meeting up.
all that to say, i’m really not down in the dumps! i do have a 3 day weekend, so i think it will help. clear the mind a little.
it sounds so whiney complain-y! but if you know me, you know i’m usually pretty easy going, genuinely relaxed and happy.
one more note: i’ve been buying jon foreman’s eps on each of the seasons. spring just came out…it’s really good! there’s a song called ‘your love is strong.’ it’s kind of like the lord’s prayer set to song. sort of. so even in this odd-state of a week, that song has really spoken to me! go check it out.
April 9, 2008 at 11:23 pm
oh my gosh, emi. that’s so awful to hear! please keep me updated on him… i’ll be praying for his healing and recovery. wow. such a heavy week for you.
you’re right… you ARE an easy-going, happy person. but you also have such a tender heart for those around you and you’re impacted by their circumstances. it’s a beautiful part of your genuineness.
(not guinness… genuiness!)
April 9, 2008 at 11:33 pm
Sometimes things can just catch up with you. It happens to everybody. I’m a pretty laid-back person, but now and then stuff starts to pile up.
Enjoy your 3-day weekend, take some time for yourself!
April 10, 2008 at 8:30 am
maybe news isn’t the biz for you. i see you more as a positive influence rather than the bearer of bad news.
but, everything will work out…it always does.
April 11, 2008 at 11:22 am
yuck. i’ve had a week or two like that myself…just really been feeling how bad the world can be, and especially seeing contrasts – one couple has a baby while another grieves a miscarriage; i’m loving life with my husband the same day someone else is widowed. there’s just lots of sad, scary stuff going on.
but i look outside my window and it’s just beautiful…and i know it’s not all bad.
April 12, 2008 at 10:37 am
g: he’s up now and talking some to people which is a huge step!! i hope you feel better too…
sarah: isn’t that the truth?! i’ve been able to chill a little so it’s been so nice.
‘poet’: you are right. everything will work out!!
suzanne: yeah, yesterday i was sitting outside in the sunshine and it really helped calm me down. life’s still tough, but i guess it’s perspective.